it's about time that the weather has caught up with the date.
lately, i've had feelings of longing for a past me. yesterday, i kind of re-lived myself, if that makes any sense - and i loved it, it just felt really good. the only way i can describe it is my california condition. the time i spent in southern california (south pasadena) in paticular just made me so happy. i used to always walk or ride my bike to this old-timey soda fountain,

and i was relaxed, and i would stop and just lay in the park on my way back. i would wear my fleece and flip-flops, and my hair would be long and flowing, i love when i am like that - i want to be like that all the time.
this situation is similar to something that happened last week. i was driving thru my home town, you know what it is, and i suddenly was overwhelmed with feelings of homesickness. even though i have not moved away yet, i felt extreme feelings of missing my home, and driving through my home town, especially when i think of walking everywhere in san francisco. not that i don't want to move away, but, parts will be sad. and i was listening to stairway to heaven when they say "There’s a feeling I get When I look to the west, And my spirit is crying for leaving", and i started to cry. thus is life.