a beautiful day

i have not posted in such a long time! a ton has happened since i have posted last - not really. some things have happened though. i went to see u2, which was really, really amazing. much better than i had anticipated. from now on i want to see u2 as often as possible.



i've been working a ton lately, which has been fun. i really enjoy some of my regulars; it's just a lot of fun to talk to friendly people all day long.

i need to loose weight and finish school, stop picking at my acne, get my haircut, and get beautiful.

i had a cigar the other night with nate and kevin at like 1 in the morning at the lake. it was awesome. andy and i used to smoke cigars all the time; i miss that.

nate's house might be sold, so that's kind of tough. one good part of that though is that we might move nate's futon into my room. it would just be really nice to have a big bed.

i love my friends - thank you to all of you who have been there for me over the years. andy - i miss you and can't wait for you to come home.

cold

today was a beautifully cold day. i'm inside now, but my toes are still really cold. i hate that. i can't wait to live in a place of my own choosing. i guess i could now, but it's kind of difficult right now - you guys know why.

right now i'm feeling very sick of always feeling sick of being busy and tired and stressed out about school. i simply want to enjoy life.

i'm sick of everyone's incompetencies, including my own.

this makes me happy. i used to walk down columbus everyday in the early morning on the way to and from nate's work at the ferry building. i always felt very old. on my way home i would often call home and check up on everyone. anyway, i love this road.

metropolis

everyone ought to see this movie.

finally

it's about time that the weather has caught up with the date.

lately, i've had feelings of longing for a past me. yesterday, i kind of re-lived myself, if that makes any sense - and i loved it, it just felt really good. the only way i can describe it is my california condition. the time i spent in southern california (south pasadena) in paticular just made me so happy. i used to always walk or ride my bike to this old-timey soda fountain,



and i was relaxed, and i would stop and just lay in the park on my way back. i would wear my fleece and flip-flops, and my hair would be long and flowing, i love when i am like that - i want to be like that all the time.

this situation is similar to something that happened last week. i was driving thru my home town, you know what it is, and i suddenly was overwhelmed with feelings of homesickness. even though i have not moved away yet, i felt extreme feelings of missing my home, and driving through my home town, especially when i think of walking everywhere in san francisco. not that i don't want to move away, but, parts will be sad. and i was listening to stairway to heaven when they say "There’s a feeling I get When I look to the west, And my spirit is crying for leaving", and i started to cry. thus is life.

fluffy hair

i love when you just dry your hair, and it is super fluffly. i know this sounds ridiculous, but i'm exhausted, so it's okay.

i have so many things that i want to do with my life. right now it looks like i may go to school for design (labeling, the look of products, but not advertising, and i don't want to design washers and dryers either), and art history with an emphasis on modern art. i really want to design clothes as well, but i think i can do that without going to school for it. maybe they won't be the most cutting edge, but they'll be nice and beautiful and hip. i can't wait until maybe spring break (Lord knows i don't have anything else to do) when i can design an outfit like this.



i'm asking a favor of all of my knitter friends - can i have your scraps of yarn, please? i don't care how small and useless you think they are, i would love to have them. i just want to make stuff, skirts, scarves, and a boob tube. i do not want to write anymore papers. sucks to your asthmar. sucks to your papers ms. syzmanski, ms. kumamoto, and mr. richter.